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urgh. just woke up from a horrible dream. it was abt this:
#1. I traded N6100 for a toyish-looking N7650 (I can only rmbr taking photos with it. blah) #2. I was doing the first/second reading for salt's mass. I screwed up like crap! yarh so that's abt it. maybe I pondered too much before bed (that kinda made things worse this morning). I'm hoping dad will reply my msg asap. last night, a (second) friend told me that I seem obsessed with [tz] and I should get a life. sounds harsh aye? apparently dad said I'm desperate (not very long ago) too. so here's a piece of my mind: even though I seem to talk abt geli 24/7, he's not on my mind for that long. feelings have alrdy mellowed and I just wanna be his friend now. oh gawwsh, I hate being judged like that. it kills me that these people actually think I'm irritatingly desperate for parrot. maybe I shouldnt exagerate my expressions yarh. it took me quite awhile to digest that "desperate" label and I only understood whyye he said that after last night's incident. ya see, my other friend could explain himself better whereas dad wasnt too gd at it. however it was, I still felt the pinch. I went for penitential service alil late last night. omg. I was avoiding people the whole time! sheesh. when I finally plugged my guts out to meet them, gabeS were being mean. aiya I cant care less abt whad they say. hur. cleopatra they call me. haha! o yes, I forgot to say my penance until I saw dad praying. muahaha. I'm evil. oh hey, I'm trying to be good alrdy yarh. nick thought I was mean to say that the boys in my xclass were a waste of my time. oh wow. I didnt alright? I feel so misunderstood. I should just shuddup. foolish. [feeling-abandoned]__Gfayth at 10:45 AM
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